Moment By Moment Todays reflection

Everyday and often moment to moment, I look for hope.

I have to. I'm built that way. (HSP-Highly sensitive person. I found out the hard way)

I know that every question I that I ask, gets a hearing and an answer is dispatched. But it arrives not often where I expect it. So I look good. I look in places where I asked the question. I look within first. I look good for answers to the unanswerable questions that bounce around my head at night and creates the perfect storm for over thinking and its sleep over companion, insomnia.

I practice setting up for the next day the night before. Not my clothing. My mindset. Including my general feeling and mood. I’m responsible for all of that. Me. Not my environment or circumstances. Not my associates or compadres. ME. That statement changes the game real quick.

I also think of reasons to smile before I get up to a new day. I have to. Just moments after we awake to a new day, the majority reach back into yesterday and pull a continuation of yesterday down to get upset all over again in the NEW DAY.

My mindset depends on it. It is brutal outside our doors and it can get even more brutal for me in my own headspace. So I get out ahead of it.

I look for positivity everywhere and share it wherever I go.

Not in the smiling all the time or picking flowers and skipping positivity. Thats not me either. However, If you want a good interaction, I don't disappoint.

I finally invested in a good pair of blue tooth headphones so relaxing music or information is never far away when I need some separation. I do this so my cup is always full or close to it or I don't go out and interact. Its not going to be good for the public or me.

I look for HOPE like I search for my wallet and or phone, both of which I misplaced often. (yeah, I do). I've made peace with that particular quirk of mine.

It's never far from me. I celebrate the new skill of redirecting my thoughts and keeping them focused on where I'm headed and what I want more of not what I wish to pass out of my experience and smile. I breathe easier as I remember being present more and more for my day; less melancholy or dark experiences.

Following a desire to be surrounded by life and rejuvenation when the world had collectively been hijacked and quarantined, I helped start a garden this April. YAY!!

This both simple and complex project was a lifesaver.

I wake up to excitement, new growth and life. I start the day with accomplishment because it's the gift that just keeps on giving me smiles.

I'm excited to harvest and share or just sit and stare at the plants, I need that win first thing in the morning. It's a free B 12 shot for me in the war on negative thinking.

I sit and meditate while watching the plants grow.

I took pictures of the tiny peppers and tiny squash as they appeared. Ooohed and ahhhed over the okra plants and the precious asparagus.

Yes I know there is a line. I promise I'm not headed to being the strange cat lady in the neighborhood, although, I'd Rock that role. LOL... not really.

Every part of me vibes Thank you! I'm appreciative and choose not to live in panic mode or fear mode because, I don't want to. Its painful.

In the moments I spend with the soil, I heal a little more of me. I've made connections to my past and feel closer to my family history than ever before.

I approach this process of unlearning with JOY because I don't ever want to be in those dark spaces ever again. Who does? No one!

I breathe deeply and adjust to make space for new knowledge and understanding of me. I allow myself time to find lessons any and everywhere. Especially in nature. It's free therapy!

Question, how long can a good start to a day keep depression or destructive negative thoughts away?

Answer: it varies from person to person. Personally, the answer is, As long as I Am aware of my thoughts.

I try not to leave my space unprepared.

It's that deep for the worldwide Mental Health community in all our beautiful bravery.

We are Always on our job. Protecting our precious mental space from intentional and unintentional disruptions in our peace. Supporting. Sharing tips, support or a listening ear. Just a thumbs up is something. I’ll take it or not. Some don’t have it to give. Its okay, we’ll give to you. Its what we humans do. It comes back overwhelmingly in triples. I’ve never lost anything I gave in love. Not one thing. It all comes back when you need it the most.

I have the formula to manufacture my own smiles.

Our LIVES, our work, our ART, our NOW depends on this balance, this care that we give ourselves.

THIS IS RADICAL SELF CARE. Major acts of self preservation are taking place in the MH Community. I appreciate all the encouragement I get, every scrap. Thank you

The above picture was taken this morning and was followed by this simple thought.

Moment to moment

Day to day, I look for hope

This morning, there it sat on a bush

I planted and tended

Soiled I tilled and turned.

Good dirt.

What was planted and hidden in the dark soil is speaking volumes to me now.

While the world shut down

I planted and waited.

The earth has spoken

And now it's feeding me.

Understand?

That's that piece.

Thank you for supporting my page and as always, positive, respectful feedback is appreciated and will be returned. I would love hear about some of your tools and ways of thriving. Be well and remember, you are not alone. Peace and Purple love,

Mluv